Stepping Down From Scarlett O’Chunky

Dearest Reader,

I never thought this time would come in my blogging life.

The moment, where I sit down at my newly acquainted desk that I am yet to still form an emotional attachment too and write this blog post. It’s incredibly hard and yet, easy at the same time to announce that I have made the decision to step down from Scarlett O’Chunky at the end of the month.

Over the past few months, I have spent more and more time away offline from both social media and my former lover, this blog, to deal with my ever-fluctuating mental health and ever-present Postpartum Depression. With this opportunity to rekindle some form of who I am now and silently craving a slither of who I was, I have taken the time to reflect on certain parts of my life, where and how I was going to get to my destinations and as I was doing this, pointed out a few things I had a passion for and thoroughly enjoyed.

It turns out, Dearest Reader, I felt a sense of calmness that I haven’t felt for a really long time and that came from not thinking about what it was I was going to write about, new post ideas that would keep my mind at bay and all of readers from across the world interested and how I would make the new year of blogging: bigger and better than the last.

For something that started off as a passion and a way to document my life journey as I became a Registered Nurse and my somewhat cringe worthy name of a blog (We’ve all got to make mistakes before we learn, right?), morphed into documenting and telling tales of my first year of being a Registered Nurse, the ins and outs of how incredibly burnt-out I became from the things I didn’t think I would see, hear, do or live to speak of.

I even started writing about how I thought my next pathway would be midwifery before deciding that wasn’t the right fit for me at all and when I least expected it, an opportunity to study Law appeared and I leapt without a backward glance. Much to the dismay of those who stood behind and next to me.

The past 9+ years that I have sat at many desks, corners of my University’s library or some form of transport penning stories have been an achievement within its self; for I had assumed after my first post that no one would read this part of me and yet, Scarlett O’Chunky has travelled around the world several times and we’ve had a great conversation wherever I am with you.

I thought I would still be writing and sharing my stories of adventure, motherhood and lifestyle well into the future. Yet, I never though my need to tell, embrace and share the truth with you all would be something that would ultimately kill any sense of joy, pride or desire to share stories with you. Whether it be the fact my post happened to land into the hands of another, prior to it being used as malicious bait and the once good feeling I had about writing/blogging was subsequently killed brutally; it was the ultimatum of giving a formal apology or never writing again that did it for me.

Occasionally this majestic place of mine gets mentioned like its scandalous fodder and each time, I can’t help but think what life would be like if they didn’t have control. Or, I resembled something entirely different to what you see and underneath, I’m like Love from You, who dreams about murdering people.

Alas, I am neither there nor here when it comes to harming people but I am there when it comes to taking a step back from something I once enjoyed and moving on with my life. Least to say, I never nor do I plan on apologising for having purely written the truth in a black satire kind of way and while Voldemort may have considered winning this round; we all know this isn’t the case.

Because ultimately, like all good Harry Potter fans know, Voldemort and Tom Riddle get defeated by Harry and his army. #plotreveal

So where to from here, Eliza?

For the moment being, I am looking forward to working on my physical and mental health and wellbeing.

Not to mention, learning to overcome the many ins and outs of motherhood, marriage, familia and the quirks that come with being a daughter and possibly, a part-time Law Student come February. Just the thought of returning to Law school makes me feel giddy and nervous at the same time. As they say, onwards and upwards.

As to Scarlett O’Chunky and everything she entails as a master piece, she won’t be disappearing from your screens.

Instead, she will be lingering around for those to come and find this place of truth and honesty and hopefully, fall in love with the stories that have been told over the years. This means, my current domain which is scarlettochunky.com will no longer be available after the end of November and will revert to my original domain of http://www.scarlettochunky.wordpress.com.

I guess in a way, a small part of me continues living on. Just without regular or somewhat regular updates. Well, Dearest Reader, the time has come for me to rest my fingers from my keyboard. Just know, I couldn’t have done it without you. Each and every single one of you. Thank you for the moments we have shared together, the tears of happiness, unhappiness and frustration. Most importantly, thank you for welcoming me into your homes, offices or your secret location location location.

Lastly, I couldn’t help but think to myself……

‘And just like that, when will part 2 be coming?’

xx

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